To be perfectly honest, I didn’t have a bad week and I’m blaming PMS for my current ability to feel emotional over every little thing. Not anger, more the ability for me to feel sadness so easily and the book that made me cry an absolutely UGLY cry. Although maybe that was what I really needed because it sure did make me feel rather cathartic afterwards.
I’m sure by now you would have seen, heard and/or read the controversy surrounding Sia’s latest music video release – Elastic Heart. The song itself is beautiful. But then again I love all of Sia’s music. That is one talented lady! Then I saw her latest music video starring the gorgeous Maddie Ziegler and Shia LeBeouf.
The video featured the two in a large cage, wearing skin toned one piece for Maddie and underpants for Shia. In it they “dance”, like they’re fighting each other. To me it looked beautiful but there were people who found it disturbing and even akin that to paedophilia. I didn’t see that. I saw a beautiful interpretation of warring sides. And that was before I found out what the music video symbolised. Shia represented who Sia is deep inside, Maddie represented her fame and talent, while the cage represented society, the world, the media. That’s my interpretation anyway. It’s basically Sia’s two warring self-states. Her own words by the way. Although really, you could interpret the video any way you want. I for instance, saw it as a parent and child fighting with different views, thoughts and ideas that inevitably ends with the child making their own minds, even if it meant getting hurt or being left behind.
While the dancing, movement and emotions were raw and beautiful, I thought the ending was the saddest part of all. That silence, that fight and loss.
The last book that caused me to cry an ugly, ugly cry was John Green’s The Fault In Our Stars. When I say ugly cry I meant, you know the snotty, tears running down your face, type of cry. Even so much as causing you to cry as you continue to the end then after that. Those kind of books. This time it was **Bright Side by Kim Holden. I wasn’t expecting it to be so emotional because let’s just say the start was rather slow. I was about to give up, but somehow I couldn’t because I wanted to know so much. I wanted to see if the slow start was going to lead somewhere.
Bright Side is a story about Kate Sedgwick, a happy-go-lucky girl who finally gets to head off to college, live her life, tick off one more thing off her bucket list. This is a girl who has had a really disgustingly sh*tty life, and yet somehow always manages to stay positive. Always looking on the brighter side of things – hence the nickname Bright Side from her best friend Gus.
It reads like a daily diary, well, ok maybe not so much a diary but it does share her life from her point of view – daily. Until she meets a boy that she really does not want to fall in love with – Keller Banks. Kate believes in love but doesn’t believe she should fall in love or be in love. She’s the most unselfish human being I have ever read about. Ok that was an exaggeration, but really, she makes you feel all good inside. Some might say the start is slow and boring but to me, it’s giving you an insight of who she is, what kind of person this Kate is like. It’s not until you hit the 80% mark that you know what’s going to happen. That’s when it’ll hit you and the sadness of it is just so overwhelming and makes you think how unfair life can really be.
I’ll have to warn you beforehand that there’s no “happily ever after”, and somehow while it’s sad, it’s perfect, because really, that’s life isn’t it? I know we read to escape from the realities of life, but this story teaches you that sometimes, you have to be spontaneous. That you really only live once and should always be grateful for what you’ve got. You’ve got your health and your loved ones around you, so grab that and make the most of it. Those were the main things I took away from this book. So if you’re looking for a book that gives you that ugly cry, or makes you realise that sometimes your bad day is just that – a bad day, then go on, read Bright Side.
P.S: There were a few other things that tugged at my heart strings this past week, but maybe that’s something for another day?
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